Wow! What a challenging day in motherhood!!
When I was a teenager I used to look at mothers who struggled with tantrum throwing “brats” (as I called them), who appeared to have no control of their children, with little to no respect. I would run my mouth about how they didn’t discipline their children and how “when I have kids, they will NOT act like that or I will jerk a knot in them.”
Yep. That was me. A silly, naive teenager.
To all those moms that I judged so harshly– I’m truly sorry!!
Now I understand.
Motherhood is not always cupcakes and flowers. It’s late nights. It’s constant needs. It’s dirty diapers. It’s tantrums. It’s wrestling toddlers. It’s exhausting. It’s stressful. It’s tears. It’s prayers late at night when you don’t know what else to do. Let’s face it– IT’S HARD!!!
But most of all it’s LOVE.
Tonight, my stubborn two year old threw me for a loop. There was a moment when I wasn’t sure how to handle it anymore. I actually felt helpless. I felt like I was failing as a mom.
After things calmed down, I had to let it go. It had been a very long and hard day for me. I was tired. I didn’t need this.
But now… I have an understanding that I didn’t when I was a teen. You’re not a bad mom because you’re dealing with the terrible twos. You’re not a bad mom because you choose not to discipline your child in public. In today’s society, spankings are unacceptable. Or you could be saving yourself from more embarrassment of the fit getting bigger. You’re not a bad mom just because the world says so.
We, as humans, tend to be so judgmental when we don’t even know the whole story. I am SO guilty!!
But God said, He’d never give us more than we can handle, even when it feels like we are at breaking point. God said He is our strength and our help in times of need.
Now, looking at my sweet, sleeping toddler, I am overwhelmed. I have so much love for this child that drives me insane. I could never hurt him no matter what he does. I could never hate him. When he comes running back, wanting mommy, my arms are always open and my heart is always smiling.
Moms— now I understand. I will never judge you again. I will pray for you. I with sympathize for you. I got your back!
Give it to God and find rest. You’re doing a great job!!!